The truth is not simple.
It takes work to plough through our own internal BS. And its multilayered, like a good Tiramasu, like our Koshas (the layers of our being). But once you get there, once you practice feeling truth it becomes so compelling and it feels so good, that you'll probably want more.
And then what happens is that what isn't truth starts to stand out. All the little lies we tell ourselves, all the way's we rearrange things so we don't need to be truthful, they begin to feel icky and uncomfortable. And the truth starts to become the nice place to hang out, and the rest begins to feel noticeably awkward and stands out.
The Yogi's were onto this.
Truth, Satya in Sanskrit, is one of the 10 anchors or ways of being the in the world that the Yogi's recommended on the path to Yoga. But Truth comes after Kindness, for a very good reason. Let Kindness be the precursor to truth telling, truth feeling, its King for a good reason.
Find a Yoga pose that feels true for you. It might be sitting, it might be lying down. Find yourself in it, in a way that feels good and find where truth lies in your body, where do you "Feel" truth the most, for some its the gut, others the heart, you might get it in a "sense". Start to find it and make contact.
This is a lifetime practice. It takes time.
Last night 15 students gathered for my little workshop, Be True Be You.
The idea of this came to me after some deep study and good soul work. You know the kind right! And so I decided that the best thing would be to combine my love of Yin Yoga, Mantra and The Moon. Its cool how these all come together, they marry up for a sweet love affair of introspection, quiet and calm.
So, the main idea of this class to remind us all that all we have are ourselves. Everyone else is already taken right? But I often feel and see that our modern life pulls us away from our authenticity, or as Stephen Cope calls it "our idiosyncratic self". I believe that we are all part of an important web, the web that makes up this life, and that its our duty and our right to live our life as close to the heart of our authenticity as possible. "Even a little practice of this dharma will save you". Even a little stepping toward being more authentic, more you, will save you. How? Because when we chip away at our own authenticity by saying yes when we mean no, by choosing another's path because it "looks" better than ours, all of this errodes our sense of happiness and trust in ourselves that we are enough, and we begin to feel inauthentic, sad, down, split, and I believe this affects our self esteem, our sense of worth in our community.
But if we unearth our gifts, and our talents and weave them into our day, well I believe that may be a little path toward happiness. There's a sense of truth and that brings freedom with it. I love Carrie Ann-Moss's words "I want a life as true as the Moon". This! This just lights me up. For a long time I've loved the moon, even my kids love the moon. There's something so true, so sacred about it and it just fills up my heart. I dont need to put it into words, I don't need to find exactly what it is about the moon that makes me so happy to see it, it just is.
So make it sacred,
Make it true,
Make it beautiful,
Let it be You.
Yoga is of course about seeing very clearly, what is actually happening. Not what we wish, or don't want, or "tell me what you want, what you really, really want" thank you Spice Girls but what is here, now, right in front of us. But Yoga is also skilfulness in action, thank you to the Bhagavad Gita for bringing us this wonderfully deep and complex battle that show's us what skilfulness in life looks like.
One of the juicy parts of this epic, is that it directs us in many different ways, to fully be who we are. Yes, isn't that cool! An ancient and epic tale of war, which slowly offers us much advice on life.
Anyway, its a big topic this Bhagavad Gita, but there's one part in particular which I'd love to write about. And its this, personal alignment, or integrity. THIS! Yes.
Personal integrity has a feeling-tone. We know when we feel good about our words and actions, maybe a smile, perhaps a skip in your step, most likely a great nights sleep. But on the flip side we certainly feel it when we are not, think anxiety, worry, fearful thoughts, lack of sleep. There's a knowing there, and its like a feedback system (Vijnanamaya Kosha territory!).
You just ##know##!!!
And this is where the skilfulness comes into the picture, *skill*fullness. Think about that, feeling in such alignment that you can be full of skill in responding to and envisioning your life, creating good Karma and maybe disrupting old patterns that no longer are useful.
How do we get there? Well, there's no "there". It feels impractical and honestly stressful, to make it a final destination, or a place to get to. But what we can do, its we can notice and really embrace that feeling when we are in alignment, and also, when we are not. Self-study, or Svadhyaya is our trusty companion here. If we aren't learning from our days, we are not taking advantage of the platter of information that each day gives us.
Take your time, each day take notes.
Journal, get nerdy with your days.